But, um, yea ...

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Ok, so. I know I "seem" all cool & happy. Well truth is ..... i'm not. Nope far from it.

A good friend of mine was killed juss acouple of dayys ago. I don't handle death very good. So, if I seem alittle out of it, u'll know why.


But it pisses me off, theyy haven't even found the SOB that killed him. >=( ... The killer better hope the cops get to him before I do ...

It's so sad tho, coz him and his wife juss recently had a baby ....


I'm sooo gonna miss my pal =''(

I worked with this guyy like everydayy, ate lunch with him, and juss hung out ... & now he's gone .... I dunno what to do ...

Oh my Lord, I'm so sorry Cam! If you need to talk, I'm here.

Why do bad things have to happen to good people ..... it's not fair ....

Awe, Camryn. I'm so sorry to hear that.

It's cool, Amaya. But he was like my closest friend at work ... I don't know what i'm gonna do now ... then there's his familyy, I hope to God they'll be ok.

They're in my prayers, all the way. Things will be okay in the end.

I sure hope so. I'm not goin' to work for awhile tho, I juss can't handle that right now =(

definately understandable. I'd do the same. it's hard losing someone important to you, trust me, I know, big time.

This is like the 3rd time this year that someone close to me has died =(

Yeah, I've noticed. One was shared by us all, too. I deeply miss him... I'm only able to pray for yours and everyone else's safety. Maybe one day, we'll all be together and safe.

I sure hope so. But it's not fair, why do bad things happen to good people .... it's not right ...

Ikr, I wish my friend hadn't lost her baby girl last year...

That's terrible. I'm sorry. =(

Yeah, and at the time, I wasn't there to help her. I was still in middle school...............

That's not a good feelin' .... I know I shouldn't .... but I blame myself for what happened to myy pal .... I should of been there to help him .... If I was there, he probably would still be alive ....

oh cam don't blame urself because if it were u that got kill onless i would be very sad even though ur friend who die would have been alive today aand u wouldn;t

cam, you don't need to blame yourself at all. There was nothing you could do.

@Jen: I rather have been the one to die than myy pal.... He has a reason to actuallyy live.

@Allysa: I could have atleast tried ....

That's true, but you have just enough of a reason to live as he did. (OMG, I keep thinking that I lost my reason to live. Lucky I have my guardian angel around, lol.)

Yea, but see ... I trulyy don't have a reason ...

Cam, You have a reason, you just don't know it. I believe my reason to exsist is to be a guardian angel to several of my friends, and for my guardian angel to have a reason for exsistance. Yours may be to give another a reason to live. Perhaps KC? He seems to care about you more than most anyone I know. I believe that KC is your guardian angel, and that you give him a reason to live.

But coz of me, he gets held back from alot of things ... =(

i agree with what allysa is saying cam as allysa said earlier u don't need to be blaming urself there was nothing u could do and what do u mean he got held back from a lot of things

I'm sure KC doesn't mind that, just as my guardian angel doen't mind my constant complaining and worrying over Spencer.

i agree allysa and i am sure he is and cam u need to know that kc is always there for u